I believe in synchronicity and that coincidences have meaning. I believe in signs. I also, after years of not listening to it, believe in my inner voice (different from the chatter that can clutter our minds). Right now, there are all kinds of signs and synchronicities telling me to make space. It’s also a big desire right at the moment. Making space is lots of things. It can be making space when someone comes to visit. It can be clearing out the closet and making a pile of donations. It can be pausing and remaining quiet so someone else can … Continue reading Making Space
All the lists in the world . . . Won’t make you renew your passport. Won’t get you to make the phone call. Won’t force you to say yes. Won’t make you get up early to write. Won’t make you stay up late to paint. Don’t mean you’ll complete the things on the list. Don’t mean that you’re not scared. Don’t reveal the day when you show up in a sizzling red dress. Don’t show the progress of a transformed life. Don’t show the discomfort after a fight, when you’re finding the peace and shutting out the bullshit. Don’t show … Continue reading All the Lists in the World . . .
Sometimes it gets tricky with unstructured time. I have all these other things I want to do outside of work. I want to visit with friends, hang out with a new friend, spend time reading, carve out space for running and swimming and biking and hiking and doing yoga, cook, write, dream, take photos, drink coffee and wine at the beginning and ending of the days. Then there are the chores like cleaning the bathroom, folding laundry, paying bills, and clearing out the car. I’m also at work on a book and a professional certification, both to do in my … Continue reading At Play
“Do what you love; you’ll be better at it. It sounds pretty simple, but you’d be surprised how many people don’t get this one right away.”– LL Cool J Okay, “do what you love” is all over Instagram (my favorite social media) and the internet. It sounds great, doesn’t it? But, I think when most of us read it, myself included, we jump to the conclusion of loving our jobs and careers. And that’s when this whole sentiment becomes difficult. All of a sudden, this doing what you love thing becomes a trap. Those of us who are just scraping … Continue reading Doing What You Love (Not Necessarily for Pay)
Recently, I got a lease renewal notice from my landlord taped to my door. I opened it, puzzled, because I moved into this apartment in October more than three years ago. Ownership had changed a year ago, and they were changing terms and getting caught up with residents. Luckily, they gave me more than a month to decide if I was going to renew my lease and for how long. Weirdly, when I get my lease renewal, I start dreaming of impermanence and travel. I guess that when you have a mortgage and a house or condo, you take a … Continue reading Dreaming and Doing with a Dry Erase Board
One of my favorite writers, Isabel Gillies, has a new book, Cozy, published in February. Not long after its release date, I called my favorite local, independent bookstore, Bookworks, to see if they had the book in stock. They didn’t, so I asked them to please order a copy for me and to consider carrying it, because I thought they might like it and could sell a few copies. This bookstore and its owner and employees here in Albuquerque, are kind and amazing and obliging. They said they would order one for me and a few for the store. Sure, … Continue reading Getting to Cozy
“Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer. Perhaps you do carry within yourself the possibility of shaping and forming as a particularly happy and pure way of living; train yourself to it–but take whatever comes with great trust, and if only it comes out of your will, out of some need of your inmost being, take it upon yourself and … Continue reading Pondering the Questions